addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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sigh. i suppose that's why i'm blogging despite all the nasty homework that is due..
i've been mugging like nuts. reading up beforehand, trying to finish all my work on time. but despite that, i still find myself lagging behind everyone else.
i think stress makes me more stupid. because i really cannot think straight anymore (as compared to in the hols). i take twice as long to understand things, and forget them twice as easily.
all this anxiety may be unecessary but i can't help it. i can't sleep at night cos i'm so busy worrying that i've forgotten something very important, that i haven't finished a piece of homework which will indirectly cause the demise of my A level grades.
school's already such a handful, what more training. sometimes when you don't want to remember things you want to cut them off completely from your life, not half here and half gone. you can never help comparing the present with the past- weight, speed, mileage, musculature.. it never ends.
it's only the second week of school and i'm already on the verge of a breakdown. i know this means that i'm weak.. yet again i am failing to survive. but sometimes, you really don't want to.